“The Sorcerers of Antiquity never arrived at the Totality of themselves, yet they knew about it. It wasn’t that they lived aberrant lives, claiming things beyond their reach; they know they had missed the boat and that only at their death would the total mystery be revealed to them. Sorcery had given them a glimpse but never the real means to get to that evasive totality of oneself.” (Power, 245)

This quote gave me a couple of things to think about, first being that an “Aberrant Sorcerer” can be defined as one who claims things beyond reach. I’m sure that is not all of it, but it helps me think that being humble is important in this work. That the one who searches should also be transparent with what they know, maybe not in words, but at the very least in deeds.

“Our ‘Second Ring of Power,’ the ‘Attention of the Nagual,” remains hidden from the immense majority of us, and only at the moment of our death is it revealed to us.” (Ring, 277)

Another take on ‘missing the boat’ to experience the Totality of oneself. How did the Sorcerers of Antiquity know this? Maybe it is just a knowledge to develop. I can often ask myself questions and receive good answers, an art I have begun to trust now. In other places, Don Juan refers to this type of understanding as a ‘forerunner’. You can use the mood of music or poetry to feel out your future and possible decision points to see what feels right/feels true. This is a form of stalking yourself.

This also makes me think of the quote from Don Juan, “To seek death is to seek nothing.” Maybe don’t wait for the moment of death hoping it will all be revealed to you. Kinda seems like another itteration of Heaven to me.